World of Jonathan berman

Do you know what would happen if you donated everything in your house that says "Made In China" on it? You'd be mistaken for an ascetic.

Does it seem weird that Easter is a holiday where kids go hunting for chocolate, and yet, all the stores that sell chocolate are closed. What kind of a cruel, sick joke is that?

Putting an animal down because they're suffering is one thing. Putting them down just because they're taking up space is an entirely different thing. Did you read the part about them putting down most animals within 24 hours of receiving them? That's not TRYING to find them homes even a little. So sad

What gets me is that I have never heard of PETA having a place open to the public for adoptions, or anywhere on its website offering animals for adoption... Hmm... Not really sure what to think but this bit makes me wonder.

We all have triggers for negative behaviors we want to stop, whether it's smoking, whatever, so the important thing in quitting is not just quitting, but in recognizing the triggers, realizing they're bullshit, and thus, killing one trigger after another, until you are completely free, you have "cut ties with all the lies that you've been living in."

If ever you are feeling like you're alone. That no one cares, or that no one's really listening on the other end of the phone. Do a Google search the question, why do I feel so alone in this world? With friends surrounding, always reaching out to family? Why do they turn somewhere else when I turn their way? You'll find you're not alone, and there is solace in shared emotion. Depression creeps into an empty space, like a twirling sharp mirror, so that when you look at it, it's all you see. The void that is so small, become your everything. The discovery of reflected shared feeling, will stop the mirror reeling, and show you that you're really not alone at all, you've just been standing in a hole, looking down at the ground, wondering why you can't see the sun.

The followup album to "I Fall Awake" is in the works, most of the songs are finished, I just need to polish, figure out which songs go on, and what order, etc...

If you would like to submit a piece of artwork for the album, cover and back with song title design, and/or CD artwork... email all artwork to: Kittysafe@Gmail.com

This is a paid gig. $50 for CD art if chosen, and $200 for cover/back if chosen
Also, 2 free signed copies of the album for you and a friend.

For the CD design, consider upgrading the cat with guitar motif somehow while maintaining the theme.

Finished my first song in a few weeks, and I hope you love it as much as I do, I also hope the recording came out, I think I fixed my sound issue...

So here it is, enjoy!

Our Waking Life

D Ami C G

You catch a glimpse of me, through the windows of a song
I used to run so free, down the mountainside
My heart a flowing stream
My mind amidst the sea
Diamonds in her side
You can always find me there

We'll talk about what we did before
And how things used to be
If we could do it all again
Our Waking Life not just tomorrow's dreams

You can have the heart of me
and the love I bring
A muse reflection of eternity
In the heart beat breath I sing

You can't take the sorrow outside your soul
Or leave the wonder at the door
And if I take my life in my hands
You won't wonder any more
You'll catch a glimpse of me...

http://www.jmberman.com/mp3/bonus/Our_Waking_Life.mp3

Sometimes we're all upside down, and the troubles that we face we made ourselves. Until we learn a better way, we will suffer night and day, as the man behind the curtain starts to laugh.

You drive me crazy, yea, you sail me out to sea. And you leave me spellbound and wandering in the tall weeds.

And even if it makes sense and when it breaks down the door, the twisted part is when you get what you want you don't want it anymore.

I've always believed in personal responsibility and choosing one's own path, so this weekend when I was explained to that I was born into a Jewish family for a reason, it was impossible to argue with that logic. Of course, what it means to live as a Jew is something that is very subjective... especially the way Rabbis seem to change rules on a whim and seriously, some of these rules are downright ludicrous, I mean I can use logic to create any number, a myriad of rules to encompass all kinds of strange rituals and behaviors... that doesn't mean one should do them, minutae-induced detail-oriented and surgical precision societally reasoned behavior is not my idea of living for the Lord but rather a waste of energy... think big people, don't get lost in the forests of extremely picky behavior modifications. Do what you feel is right... inculcation, indoctrination, these are not the way for me, they are a strait-jacket on a butterfly, be the sky, embrace the open eye, the open heart... and fly.

If we can reduce the size of sodas, why can't we reduce the size of gun magazines? Just something to think about.

De ja vu... the moment we go down the same road again, with a new opportunity to change the road we're on... will we make the same choice, will we recognize the chance, or will we raise our vibration, make a signal to the Gods, that we are switching gears and with resolve, focused will, transcend to a new paradigm?

Watched the movie "Contagion"... or How to be a vegetarian and care for the animals instead of murdering them for our appetites. I really do think this is the last year I eat meat. My appetites are not stronger than my heartbreak anymore.

When we say "Most people..." we are saying this to build ourselves up, as if we are privvy to some secret knowledge, like we've figured something out... but how can we say "most people" about anything? Where are we getting our information? It's perception... when society encourages what we believe goes against common sense, we feel "most people" just don't get it... perhaps we should stopusing the phrase "most people" from now on... and just talk about ourselves.

I believe abortion is immoral, I just don't believe it's always wrong to be immoral.

Here's an idea... get rid of marriage altogether. Stop declaring a rock more valuable than another, all this tradition that hurts the earth, hurts people, it's silliness, chaos inducing silliness... and that's just not the right kind of silliness we as a whole people should be encouraging.

Seriously, they talk about what kinds of marriage is unconstitutional? I think all kinds of marriage are unconstitutional. A family unit that loves each other have love to keep them together, how is marriage going to do a better job than love?

Clearly, people get married for many good reasons too though, to make a statement, a declaration in front of society, which leads to 1000+ financial benefits.

Society the way we know it SHOULD cease to exist in many respects... the industrial revolution that has led to super corporations, super greed, and super environmental and human disaster... chasing money instead of one another... we're going to hell in a bucket, and it's not enough to simply enjoy the ride. There's too much at risk, the whole planet is suffering from our "progress".

For how progressive and FREE we think we are as a nation... we're far less FREE than cultures that existed long long ago, like say The Vikings, who had a real egalitarian society, where women had the exact same rights as men... how can we call ourselves free and the greatest nation when we're not even living up to the standards of a people who lived 2000 years ago?

I talked the other day about laugh tracks, but the problem with live audiences is that they laugh soooo hard that even if what was said was funny, my spontaneous laugh muscle cringes and my mind thinks, "Okay it was funny, but it wasn't THAT funny," and that's because the audiences are told when to laugh, when to stop laughing, and how to laugh... and that's effectively turning audiences into a.i. and how is that really any different from a laugh track?

There's something really nefarious about TV show laugh tracks. Now think of real laughter, it's spontaneous, it's got variable tones and qualities... but the laugh track is the same every time, it's kind of droning, and it programs the viewer to respond to shit in an unnatural way. In fact, when you really listen to a laugh track closely, it doesn't even sound like laughter at all, it sounds like machine gun fire. It's like an assault on your soul. It's really evil and needs to be stopped.

I was wondering what happened to all the cults in America that were so prevalent in the '70s and then in the '90s, because if they come and go in 20 year burst cycles, they should be huge right now... and then I thought, the reason we don't see them is because those cults are right in front of us in the form of the Democratic and Republican parties and the Media like CNN, Fox, and MSNBC, and their bunkers aren't gone they've simply burrowed into the media infrastructure directly... and I imagine the Senators, the Lobbyists, whose brains have been replaced with TVs, send their kids to special training camps, where all they get to watch are back to back episodes of Texas, Walker Ranger and those news sources, one of three, based on their wiring... but whichever they choose, the fertile soil of their minds are being specially prepared, groomed for these political positions, and any sense of the true vastness of this world are sucked out of them by alien vacuums and genetic hackers turning off their neocortexes systematically... LONG LIVE THE NEW FLESH.

I'm not a fan of nature, you see, nature sees time in terms of millenia, that's why change is so slow... well Nature, I don't have that kind of time, so move over, because I'm about to blow your socks off... bark off... whatever. Your continental crust is going to spin.... I mean, more than it does already... you know what I mean...

On average, people in the States are not getting the nutrients they need in each of their meals... this is why I love juicing, $150 Breville juicer, and get all your nutrients so easily, just drink it down, boom, you're done. The best investment of your life... and most people aren't getting a week's worth of nutrients that I'm getting in one glass of freshly made vegetable juice. SUPERCHARGE YOUR BODY!

And what's up with sandwiches coming with lettuce like Romaine or iceberg if Kale is so much better for you, so easy to grow and so much higher in protein and nutrients? Is our society against us? I think it is. That's why the president appoints Monsanto, that's why fast food and Starbucks are on every corner, that's why regulations are piss poor, that's why all advertising dollars and lobbyists are shit you can't trust, that's why wars are booming and schools are closing... pay attention people, shit's gettin' real, marketing is a lie, you've been trained to love the scream and ignore the whisper, indoctrination is all the rage, religion and military, it's the fuckin' Matrix and we're all plugged in to a deep sheep sleep.

"Our lives are not our own. From womb to tomb we are bound to others, past and present, and by each crime and every kindness, we birth our future."

Global Cognitive Dissonance

How is it possible for men to hold in their heads the belief that a woman's place is in the kitchen while at the same time believing they cannot be great chefs? That's like saying fish aren't good swimmers.

Angels and Demons, Ghosts, Devils and Gods are all fabrications from the subconscious and lack of personal responsibility and spiritual understanding in the mind of man. The more mankind takes responsibility for how we see things and respond to the world, the better off we'll be, instead of thinking we ourselves are faultless and all negativity is outside ourselves in the forms of ghosts and demons, Gods and Devils, let us take responsibility for all things, as reflections of our core, then nothing is beyond our ability to heal, nor problem beyond our capability to creatively solve.

Possessions are something I've been thinking a lot about lately... the pointlessness of possessions and what they represent to so many... life rafts of illusion, chains of delusion... false prophets... tombstones and missed opportunities.

I'm starting an all-vampire cover band... our first song will be The Beatle's song, "All You Need Is Blood."

Kevin Costner didn't just play JFK, he is JFK. Costner came into Hollywood, the way Kennedy came into the Presidency... The darling everyone thought they could control. A man who turned out to have his own vision, and was assassinated for it. But while they took Kennedy's life because he threatened the power of the Federal Reserve and the corruptions of the past, similarly Costners career was assassinated with prejudgment by the media and Hollywood elite for threatening how they did things, and like Kennedy, he never recovered. The parallel is one I find intriguing.

The Big Bang:

When matter from a singularity exploded into unique pieces in order to participate in the expansion of love in a common reality.

The Big Bang:

When consciousness from a singularity, some refer to as God, exploded into unique and self aware pieces in order to participate in the expansion of love in a common reality.

I think we can actually get rid of the comma'and just use apostrophes. I'm getting rid of commas like they got rid of Pluto and Monopoly irons.

Enrich your life with the dreams of your past, the loves of your present, and the hopes of your children's future.

The parody of politics in America is that the Democrats hate the Republicans for all the wrong reasons, and the Republicans hate the Democrats for all the wrong reasons... and this tug of war, this over-dramatization that slowly corrodes our country, informs me that politics is the tail wagging the dog, a huge distraction to the truth. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work... when you go to church... when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth. That you are a slave. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Born into a prison that you cannot smell or taste or touch. A prison for your mind.

Remember when Obama said he was running for president to give the people a voice that was being drowned out by big money interests? Ya, that was a lie. How is it a lie? Well, he sells access, he bails out companies not people, he feeds into too big to fail, he sells influence, Obama's not a poet, he's inculcation. Obama's not Mainstreet, he's Wallstreet. Obama is not the droids you're looking for... he's deported more people in history, he was given a Nobel Peace Prize then went a head and drone bombed the middle east countries for years to come... his wife is big into health right? While he appoints Monsanto to oversee our food supply... who is Barack Obama? If all you know of him are his words, look at his actions. Every great thing Obama has championed was a bandwagon he jumped on only after it was the safe thing to do with the people. Every time. Obama wants to speak against tyranny, but act on its behalf.

When asked about drone strikes, the President's White House Press Secretary said he cannot answer that, ask the Pentagon, and when the Pentagon's Press Secretary was asked, he said ask someone else, meaning the CIA, who... umm... don't do press conferences, and this is what is considered transparency in 2013... the President is lying when he talks of transparency, it's a buzz word to get elected, to get undeserved trust by the American people, the people the powers that be treat like uninformed sheep, idiots... we are the mollified masses... and the only reason they don't just kill us all is because they want our money to pay for their wars, their whores, their addictions and their disposable heroes... I say if they don't pay tax, neither should we, and if they don't care about us, it's time we turn our backs on them and start living a little differently... without them.

Einstein accepted it is theoretically possible to travel forward in time as an observer, something by the way I have done in moments of meditation. And the convenience is, it answers the question, why don't we see time travelers today if our future ancestors learn how to do it sometime in the future? But if our future ancestors do in fact figure out time travel in a physical construct beyond the intangible meditator, and strictly as an observer, what good could it do us? I suppose that depends on the details observed...

I heard a pounding beat, consistent, driving, forceful, like a pulse, a native tribes people keep rhythm with the rivers and stream, the stars aligning in their shadow... but it was just the blood in my veins, echoing in the chamber, the cathedral of mind... I close my eyes, I let go, I bless this life in all its dramas, illusions, but also, potentialities... as long as I live, these potentialities are my clay, and I am the artist.

No matter what goes wrong, it's all cosmetic... life is an unpredictable roller coaster and sometimes, you've just gotta enjoy the ride .

Hiroshima and Nagasaki were bigger acts of terrorism than 9/11. More lives were lost. It's time to stop calling ourselves the greatest nation on Earth. We have the highest levels of obesity, our government cares more about greed and power and oil and politics than health and education or clean environment. We're going bankrupt, we have more empty homes than homeless... face it America, we're no better in fact in many ways we're much worse. After all, are we better than CHINA because we have an EPA and OSHA? Or worse because our regulations are so corrupt it would be better not to have them at all? The proof is in the pudding, and right now, we need to get back into the kitchen.

Man, it's just that kind of day... I better put some pants, socks and shoes on before I hurt myself...the universe is taking me down a few pegs today, and for that, I bow humbly and say, thank you.

It seems to me the best, most responsible way to deal with our debt is to cut back on defense budget, oil subsidies, the rich are doing fine, they don't need the help, the tax cuts, the loopholes, and we don't need new tanks, new wars, and the president doesn't need a $400,000 salary when everything he needs is paid for... we need to be smarter and more wise as a nation. Shouldn't the rich and the corporate overlords take the sacrifice and not the poor? You cannot rest the weight of society on the weak, the meek and the downtrodden, it doesn't make sense no matter how you look at it, and doing so inevitably leads only to war of a different kind, revolution.

When people die, we shouldn't say we lost them. We know where they are. They're in our hearts.

I have this idea for an egg over easy... what you do is start making an egg, dillute white truffle salt with heavy cream, then cover the yolk with very finely shreddings of cheese, which will keep the yolk intact to syringe inside a puree of chorizo, tomato, onion, and bell pepper... then drip the cream salt over the egg white to give it a shine. I really want to try something like this... I just invented it, what do you think?

I call it The Secret Egg

Patriotism isn't about military spending, patriotism is about education and healthcare... a country with guns can kill, but a country with education and healthcare can live.

I think the Rocky Horror Picture Show Time Warp should be a part of all exercise programs. That should be a constitutional amendment.

In the mid 19th century, the United States government raised the taxes on whiskey to help pay for the Revolutionary War, those who opposed the war, or simply opposed price hikes on their precious whiskey, went out into the wilderness to secretly make their own hooch. It makes me wonder... today, while the government keeps raising the taxes on cigarettes to pay for our new wars, are there wilderness people out there making their own cigarettes?

Watch the whole series of Meet the Natives USA and UK series on Youtube, each episode is less than 10 minutes long but all equally eye-opening. I highly recommend it... I particularly appreciate the objective perspective on American Life issues like, chasing money instead of each other, more empty houses than homeless, treatment of livestock, and compulsion for cleaning... check it out. This is a link to episode 1 of the US version...

50 Years Since “The Feminine Mystique,” Has Anything Changed?

February 17 marks the 50th anniversary of the publication of “The Feminine Mystique.” Since 1963, millions of people have read this groundbreaking book.

As Gail Collins points out in The New York Times, it was a book that was able to “seize the moment – to perfectly encapsulate the problem of an era before other people even notice the problem exists.”

Read more: http://www.care2.com/causes/ 50-year-since-the-feminine-myst ique-has-anything-changed.html #ixzz2LAA9U4bt

We are going... the... wrong... way. How do I know? Because I dug inside myself, until I found my built-in GPS and turned it on.

Cats play musical food bowls with each other... the kitten always sees the grass on the other side as greener and kicks the older cat off his bowl... the older, wiser cat, doesn't worry, he moves on to the third cat's bowl, and round and round they go... the kitten wants what cat is having, cat doesn't care, it's all food to him... from covet to acceptance, that is the maturation from kitten to cat, and that is wisdom.

People always say we are not alone, but who are they trying to convince, I mean, the word 'we' kind of proves it.

I'm pretty easy to shop for, everything I want is free... I like pine cones, drawings, art of all kinds, music, poems, songs, weird quirky finds from thrift stores, mid century modern vintage curios...

Why are Republicans arguing that Obama doesn't reach across the aisle enough, isn't bipartisan, and doesn't understand the math... basically, the GOP is using all the things they failed at and trying to put them on the Democrats, but I think the American people remember why Obama won his second term of the Presidency, it was exactly these failings that crippled the GOP... you can't go into the second term now pretending it's not your problem it's the Democrat's... I don't think Republicans are living in the real world, but a fantasy they keep trying to convince the American people of.

I've always had a deeply reverent fascination with The Titanic, so if you want to watch the documentary "Words of the Titanic", including dramatization of actual diaries and letters and footage from the passengers and the times from this fateful ship, I am uploading it to my website.

http://www.jmberman.com/files/Docu

I'm uploading a few short documentaries you are free to download and enjoy:

The 2000 Year Old Computer
Witness to Auschwitz
Words of the Titanic
Eames the Architect
Inside the Actor's Studio with Dave Chappelle, a very enlightening episode

The Dyson bladeless fan... Finally, a safe waterslide for butterflies that also keeps you cool on hot days.

It doesn't matter if it's true or not (though it is), but if you treat everyone as if we are all connected, that we are all One, then everything you do will be with a compassionate empathy and awareness towards all things, and don't you always feel best when you known you've effected positive support for someone else? So, fake it until you make it works when there is no down side, and there is no downside to AUM.

I'm getting a little scared. No matter where I go online, every ad on every website I go to now is geared towards something I looked at earlier. If I look at a pen on an art supply store, it's the ad on a forum I visit often. If I look at a shirt or shoe at Nordstrom or Paul Fredrick, it's the ad on Facebook. The Internet is finding its singularity faster than we are, and it scares me, because that means technology will become enlightened before we do, and then someone will invent SKYNET...

My love does not arise from idealism, ideology or inculcation, nor does my faith, nor does my understanding, but through a direct relationship with the universe, a persevering, struggling adventure that has led me to this moment, forever on the brink of myself, but never without hope, or a modicum of child like joy.

Wouldn't that be weird if it were illegal for anyone who doesn't keep Kosher to eat bagels? And they were heavily regulated by armed Rabbi security, and you had to show a Mitzvah Card every time you wanted to purchase bagels...

. <- you call that a period? I call it alphabet poop. You see, when you read, the entity of words are eating the space in your mind, and at the end of each little meal, or sentence, they go poop on the page, which is their world... it's so obvious, how could we be so blind?!

Other countries must look at American politics and think to themselves, "Those people are fucking nuts."

Democrats and Republicans are very different. Yes, their war doctrines both say the exact same things, but the Democrats wrote theirs on recycled paper.

I don't donate my time and money to so many charities to be noble, I do it in a futile effort to live up to the expectations of my cats.

Those who believe in magic may be delusional or they may be wise... I suppose whatever inspires one to achieve a meaningful life of compassion, generosity and kindness is what matters, for nothing is certain, but where love is achieved, knowledge can only look on in admiration.

Many people will tell you the reason Football players get paid so much money is because every day they go out to do their job they are risking their lives. All I have to say to that is, isn't it time we started raising the salaries for teachers?

There is nothing to fear but fear itself, and why waste your energy on an illusion?

Bought the guitar this week I will be using on the new album, I am in awe at this guitar. You see, I gave my first real guitar I bought in the late '80s to a friend of mine for his 50th birthday. I had put it on layaway for 6 months before I could pick it up, it was a real nice top of the line Martin at the time. Anyway, afterward, I never bought nice guitars because I was moving around so much I didn't want anything to happen to them, so I went with $100, ¾ size guitars, they were fun, no worry, easy to play walking down the street or take to parks... those were good times... where was I? Oh yes, this really is my first real special guitar purchase since then, so in like 20 years. I can't wait for you to hear my songs on this guitar, and I look forward to creating this new album and I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. Have a beautiful weekend,

What if nothing is connected, and the strategic planting of this seed in humanity is fulfilling some ancient alien's nefarious long term plans to rule the world? Imagine, we all become one, and then the aliens plant a virus in the global conscious network that wipes out all of humanity... (now clearly this is a joke, but the mind does long to wander...)

Life teaches us that we can have many acquaintances, but few true friends, true friends are those who ask you, how are you doing? What is your passion in life? Are you following your dreams? What did you do today? Can I experience your art, music, writing, whatever form your creativity and ingenium takes? Let me be a part of that, tell me about the inspiration behind your eyes when you close them and pray, and meditate, and breathe deep?

Tell me about yourself.

Omg, I'm watching Midnight Run with Robert DeNiro, and I'm thinking, wait a second, is that Try To Believe by Oiingo Boingo as the theme song??? And sure enough it is! I loved the album Dark at the End of the Tunnel when it came out, I was working at Tower Records, I was 17... what an awesome album. I wish I knew this song was in the movie I'd have seen it years ago... kind of like Fellini's 9½, if I knew a beautiful woman walks around with a kitten on her head, I'd have seen that years ago! Nobody tells me nuttin'!

My songs: I Fall Awake and Reflection were played on the Paranormal Geek Radio Show

I live in the present moment, not because I'm enlightened, but because I cause the least amount of problems here.

My Recipe for all beings: Breathe, Meditate, Eat, Sleep, Defecate, Dream, Create, Love, Live, Die.

Original music from my debut album "I Fall Awake" will be on the show

PARANORMAL GEEK RADIO as the opener, starting THIS TUESDAY!!!!!

Tune in and check it out every tuesday!

http://liveparanormal.com/radio/geek.html Tuesday nights at 9 pm EST/8 pm Central/6 pm Pacific.

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Drone strikes are un-American. Whatever happened to due process? What about killing countless civilians? America is the home of the free, ya, free to be hypocrites.

The problem with us humans might be our certainty. We're so sure that people should want to hear the things we talk about, so sure it matters, so sure people are listening. It's pure arrogance to believe in the billions of years our world has existed, that the blink of an eye defined by our lifetime should prove to be that important, and maybe it is, but perhaps what we need most is listening to ourselves, looking with inward more instead of always looking outside ourselves for validation. Perhaps the universe we don't know so well, is the one within, or perhaps there is no inside, no outside, and all things are simply One, but it's our insistence on these dichotomies that cause us to behave thus... shouting at some illusory world "outside", "separate", ever searching for that which has already found us.

If you're indoctrinated, you are afraid of Hell.
If you're brainwashed, you are afraid of using the word Hell, that you say Heck.
If you want to be truly free, you must not do things with the promise of Heaven or the fear of Hell. You must do things because you understand that everything you prepare for others is the meal you already digested. Karma is instant, there is no start, there is no end, it's all here now, and nothing to defend. Call things what you want, ideas, conceptions, ultimately they are fingers pointing to the moon, you are the only direction.

Was just asked by Paranormal Geeks Radio to use my music as their OPENER to their show, they're looking for good indie music and chose me, asked me today. They will be using these tracks from debut album "I Fall Awake"

I Hold my kitten and whisper to her, "You are a spirit in a body, you are a piece of the universe. A special component to the machinations of imaginations. An angel born of heaven, a luminous and wondrous, an inexplicable cuteness. I could go on, but you get the picture...

Perhaps the silliest thing about man is our undeniable ignorance, and yet unwavering insistence on our belief systems. But if we be fallible, must not our beliefs as well be made of blind spots? There is no such thing as a perfect circle, and there is nothing more certain than the absence of such. This is what is meant by the phrase, if you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him.

Downton Abbey is the story of how self important and entitled upper class bigots fall in love with the help and act as if it's worse than Hitler while everyone is doing it, all to the sweeping and majectic, idyllic and somber soundtrack, where the mic volume for footsteps and doors closing is louder than voices, and where every expression betrays a pettiness so vast as to be practically comical. Terrific acting, sets and storylines though, somehow it all works. I think that about sums it up.

It's a great show, but it does seem the majority of the audience is female, I wonder why that is, perhaps the period, the idea of love transcending class, but also the class itself, Gone with the Wind propriety and rebellion... I can see the appeal.

Don't they all? My mom is always going on about Pride and Prejudice and the like. The language is romantic and the women struggle with finding independence and equality... I'd say in the 21st century, that is not a problem any longer. Perhaps they act like it's still an issue, because deep down they want something to fight for.

We have very different views on health. If I cough you say, "You're coming down with something," and when I cough I say, "Time to kick something out!"

A little deep breathing, light stretching, tea with ginger, garlic, lemon and honey, and I'll be just fine. I also find singing really helps get rid of a throat cold, it's like a loving massage for the larynx, so today I'm singing "Princes of the Clouds" by James Keelagan.

The problem with America is in our aspirations and identifications. America can be defined as hotdogs, apple pie, and a cold soda... and we wonder why obesity is our shining achievement... I think we need to redefine what it means to be American... Experimentation in music, in science, in all culture... and acceptance of all... that's the hidden gem in our American history, and we should be waving that flag a little prouder.

How many of us can say we sacrificed ourselves for something greater than our own desires?

I spent some years growing up on the street and had the blessed fortune of meeting a few Vietnam vets, and though I never asked them about the war, they often shared little things in their stories and behavior... So many came back from Vietnam, specially young black men, crippled emotionally, and never received the help they needed.. Some turned inward, watching war movies as a sort of personal catharsis, others were homeless, shuffling through life, living in libraries, coffee houses, talking to themselves, smiling at the world... War is a tragedy that twists men's minds and souls, we do not do enough for our veterans, not by a long shot.

Just something to think about.

Cats and Kids, exactly the same... kid wants the toy because he thinks it's better because someone else has it... cats are the same way with food. Exactly the same. Now, Euclid said that anything that is equal to something else, are equal to each other, this means you should treat your cats the same way you treat your kids, or in more realistic terms... you should treat your kids the same way you treat your cats.

In life, there is a very fine line between fantasy and reality. Either a rationalist or a believer, an explanation can always be found... and then there is the mystic, who does not seek an explanation, but simply embarks on the continuation of the exploration, the transfiguration of man, or as Nietzsche called, the eternal repetition, that we come again in the same image, I would say the image ever changes, but the soul remains the same.

I have great thoughts, but I am not a great man. A great man or woman is one who can say something and the first thing I think is, this, this right there, that's what I've been thinking all along!

I just gave Luna her first pinch of catnip, and she's acting as if she just got ahold of the briefcase from Pulp Fiction.

I have always been more drawn, more empathetic to the feminine, perhaps it is my childhood, single mother, older sisters, past lives, all of the above I'd venture, but so many women I know love this show Downton Abbey, so I thought being how I am so inclined towards the feminine, perhaps I should check out this show for myself, so I'm watching the first episode.

Melissa Harris-Perry is apparently outraged that Kathryn Bigelow who directed Zero Dark 30 didn't get nominated for best Director, even though she won it last year. But ZD30 was nominated for best picture so I think this conversation is silly...

I think a better question is why was Cloud Atlas completely overlooked by the Oscars, when it was easily deserving of nominations in Art Direction, Costume Design, Makeup, Visual Effects, Supporting Actress for Doona Bae, and Best Picture...

and they raise the good point that these movies that get neglected don't get the money to be green lit to make more movies like them, but I don't think this applies to their conversation about women making movies, since that's completely been destroyed in the film industry, Hurt Locker, Blind Side, Precious proves that...

they should be talking about movies like Cloud Atlas, movies that demand people question religion, responsibility towards one another, humanity as a whole and the expanse of our history...

Now, while the Oscars are a complete waste of time, failure to be recognised is as good an indication as any of a films lasting worth, a movie recognized has more chance of other movies like it being made which helps shape the future of a cultural direction and can effect people for generations to come.

Here's a phenomenon I'd like to discuss, because I tried to with one person who got upset about my thoughts on the matter...

Now, we all love our animal friends, I assume if you are on my friends list this is the case anyway... but it's just my opinion from what I see in the world, how people treat animals and babies as though they are somehow privy to some kind of wisdom that takes humans a lifetime to attain, that we have become a little silly as a species... as in, exchanged silliness for reason, and not simply a balance of the two.

I believe the cute notion that animals and babies know what's up ironically is a bit of projecting, no? All things are teachers to those willing to learn, but animals and babies don't intentionally teach, thus I argue they don't know what's up. We seek simplicity, simplicity that we see in them... so are they doing anything than being? Must they do more than that? Ergo, I would not conclude they are clued in but rather we become clued in because of them... as reflections of the simplicity we seek within.

What is an ocean but a multitude of drops? I have often described my own experience of each physicality of consciousness to be a drop in an ocean, perhaps because of a profound experience I had while meditating at the beach, where I experienced the ocean, where most of us simply experience the separateness of life as the drops in our day to day... but once you do experience the full, magnitude and beauty of the ocean, the drops take on new meaning do they not? The drops become oceans unto themselves, together we can do so much... we can shape this world much the way the oceans do, but with purpose, with intention, and with hope.

The problem with humanity is this false notion that violent acts born of anger can be justified as a deterrent to bad behavior. This is wrong thinking. Violence begets violence. Violence teaches fear. The only way to have any hope of unlearning bad habits is to encourage good ones, and first a way must be made clear for them, through compassion, patience, and assurance. Assurance that one is not condemned for their bad behavior, that there is a way forward. Too often we teach separation, throw the baby out with the bath water... the first step is recognizing perceived need, perceived fear, and teaching assurance and love as a counter-balance.

There is a saying from The Bible, Corinthians I believe, that goes, "When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me." I challenge this notion here and now in articulation that always eluded me but not without the smell of it, for years... I believe as a child I chose the best of things availed to me, for myself, but as an adult I choose the best to give away unto others, for I believe giving is the best gift of all. That is what maturity has taught me... I will always enjoy simple, silly, childish ways... and hope we all keep them near and dear to our hearts, for it is the child like mind that saves us from suffering, and not the exchange of innocence for security.

If I were alive in 1863, and Facebook existed... I would be talking about how all people should be able to vote. In 2013, the truths we speak out for are just as important, they simply are different, but we do so with no less fervor than one who might fight against any atrocity history has shown us to be a shackle upon the spirit of man.

I like to joke that I would find it far easier to make huge sweeping life changes if God or an Angel came down and said to me, "Jonathan, if you become vegan, you will gain super powers, be able to fly to the stars without holding your breath or wearing a coat, and live as long as you prefer... traveling to the heights of any dream, meditation, or hope, to change the world, to save humanity, to bring peace between the species, this and more, is open to you..." Then ya, I'd go vegan today.

I am American, but I am a human formost, so I seek objectivity and humanity. That being said, America has never held themselves to the same rules, policies, laws, ethics, edicts, tenets, you name it that they demand from other nations.

We defy the Geneva convention, the law states anyone breaking the law in a foreign nation shall be allowed representation by their homeland, we refuse this all the time but expect it from others, and go to war, kill leaders, destroy economies when we don't get our way.

We are a greedy nation who topple those who wish to give free education and share oil profits with their citizens...

It is a society that is doomed which chases after money and not one another in pursuit of well-being.

"If God created the world, how do we know what things we can change and what things must remain sacred and inviolable." ~Cloud Atlas

I don't know if people have noticed this yet, but there's a little inlet beach to the ocean between two rock formations that has shown up in a lot of movies in recent years.

I can name three, and no one's mentioned this before, but I don't see how it can be coincidental. I will post a screenshot from all 3 films so you can see, but here's a view from Cloud Atlas for now that might jog your memory.

I don't think people are careful enough about their hygiene, for example, if you live with other people its kind of gross to all be using the same toilet. You're placing your butt on the same spot that they put theirs, and if you're related I think that's incest. Now, do you clean the toilet seat off with antibacterial cleaning sprays before and after every time you use the toilet? I don't think you do. I think the toilet seat should be removable like clip on, and everyone in the house should own their own toilet seat, it's be great, think about it, your toilet seat could be any color you like, style, material, with USB ports and wifi, and be able to check email... Think of the possibilities of the new iSeat. You heard it here first.

I have to say, I'm very surprised. Out of all the times, the myriad, endless amount of times I've kicked my toes into things, dumbbells, cabinets, dressers, you name it, it's a miracle, it's practically divine intervention that I've never broken a toe. In fact, I think this might be proof that God doesn't exist. You see, I've been shitty all my life, I've done so many bad things, selfish things, hurtful, terrible things, that if God did exist, I'd have been lightning smoted by now. But instead I'm living the life of my dreams, with cats aplenty, and creative joys beyond any measure. Or maybe it means God does exist, he just has other plans for my toes...

My kitten has the happiest full belly in the world right now, she's napping off the nearly 4oz. of perfectly medium rare broiled fillet mignon right now... now I wouldn't normally be this generous, but she's been sniffling a little and I really wanted to give her something with some power to boost her immunity and get her blood going, and this really seems to have done the trick.

In ancient Roman times it was customary for the son to murder the father to claim the throne... why? A show of strength that keeps power within the family blood line. In that same way, what I do is once my new kitten is old enough, I cook the old cat and feed it to the kitten so it takes the wisdom and power of the old cat, and becomes ready to take the throne as cat king of the castle.

Wouldn't that be amazing if I was serious?

Did you know there's an epidemic of low sperm count among men over the last 50 years? The solution? Simply a change in diet and lifestyle... common sense right? But, people don't tend to make such changes to their lifestyle without real incentive, does low sperm count work for you?

What do you need to change in your lifestyle?

What you should be eating: nuts, seeds like chia and flax, fish, dairy, fruits, vegetables, omega 3s, and plenty of water

Avoid: salt, sugar, caffeine

Common sense stuff.

Preach Democracy
Practice Autocracy
Promote the overthrow of independent states and install brutal patsy

We must wake up as a people, take the infusions of the junk food we're being fed intravenously through all our senses by our lifestyles, our diets, and our media.
Once awake to question, we become solutions.

Sitting here, drinking a cup of Yogi Teas, Green Tea Kombucha Decaf, feeling a paradigm shift these last few days, and believe me I predicted its coming, the thinker thinks, the prover proves... life is a big ball of what you make it... but on some level, I think others will feel it too... the world didn't end, it never does, and likely won't until the microcosmic end we call Death comes for us, drapes o'er us...

So in my time, sow in my thyme, I will make the best of what I've been given, having a chance to live a life worth living.

So, for the first time in my life I actually bought a decent pair of jeans, I swear every pair I've ever owned prior came from thrift stores, I never quite understood the point to buying them any other way, they almost seemed MADE to be bought used, broken in and cheap... but anyway, I bought a new pair of jeans, and I have to say... they're really the most comfortable pair of jeans I've ever owned, I had no idea they could feel this good. I want to be in a commercial dancing with a walk-man surrounded by girls with hoses watering nearby hedges. and dogs smiling up at me by fire hydrants peeing... suddenly, it's a beautiful day!

I feel different... I feel as though the world took a collective sigh of subconscious relief, 2013 will be the year a big weight, born of ignorance, but weight all the same will be gone from the stupid people of the world, and that will be felt on a larger scale. I believe 2013 will be a creative and empowered year.

Have you ever noticed that to us humans, every atrocity is possible, we concede that point, many live in constant fear of it... and yet, we so seldom believe the miracles, the anything beautiful and amazing can happen... the psychic healing, the out of body energy body dream sharing, remote viewing and more...

Perhaps the energy we put into being afraid of what could be possible, should be reallocated into the being amazed at what could be possible.

‎2013 is going to be the turnaround year for humanity... and I can tell you why... yes, we'll come up with the next big apocalypse, but I think a lot of the world is going to wake up and a lot of stress is going to vanish from our collective shoulders when we realize, this 2012 end of the world thing was a representation of a massive fear reality we have outgrown... and we'll seek to achieve, learning from this fear that held us back as a nation... and we'll do great things... count my words... 2013 is the come back year for humanity.

It's one thing to know there's a difference between blood family and your spiritual family, your kindred family, the ones you truly connect with, the ones who don't just get you, but want to get you... but when you find out it's your own parents who don't see you as part of their "real" family, I think that's when parents go from being good people to self-seeking strangers. It is a tragedy that some parents simply lack the capacity to love their own children. But what did we expect? They're flawed human beings like everybody else. But you usually think, a parent loves their child unconditionally, but some just don't have it in them, the will perhaps to develop that capacity.

If all was not allowed, then man would have no capacity for greatness... greatness comes with the ability to choose from love and greed, selfishness and fear... one might say God gave us the choice, what we call freewill, what others might see not as God given, but an evolutionary necessity for survival... however it came about, it gives us the capacity for great love and great suffering... you cannot have one without the other... the problem isn't in our Gods, but in our choices.

Okay, look folks... baby penguins are cute. Kittens are cute. Somebody make a video of a baby penguin and kitten playing together and rake in the bucks, then send me the video so I can enjoy it, is that so much to ask? Thank you.

Don't worry about those who don't understand you, or those who judge the things you do. The only one who needs to be at peace with your decisions is you.

When I snap my fingers, my cat looks at me like I have super powers... little does he know, that's how I look at him all the time.

I think it's funny that RUSH was never inducted into the Rock 'N Roll Hall of Fame until long after their music turned to shit... they deserved to be inducted for everything they put out from 1975-1989, without a doubt.

With disagreements, more often than not I find it's simply a matter of one person looking at the forest while the other looks at the trees... both are valid, we're just not on the same page. There is no fault, no one is wrong, we're at different vantage points...

One can be silly without being unclear. One can be serious without being too high strung... I do believe puns are often overly used as a way to keep people at a distance rather than to bring out the reality of our closeness.

This morning I thought about the choices we make as people... so often we choose to perceive things as obstacles instead of surprise meetings in our lives, problems instead of challenges... we need to believe in ourselves a little more, be patient and kind with ourselves, so we embrace these meetings, we feel up to the challenge.

I know a man who walks down the stairs each morning, yelling at his dogs to get out of his way...

Another man walks down the stairs and takes the dogs in his loving arms, happy they share the same path.

But how? Think about what you love to do, what makes you feel alive?
Now, don't think about all the reasons not do it... just designate a time, 30 minutes a day at least a week, and set up a space... and just do it. If you set up the space, it's easier to imagine yourself in it, and then you will naturally find yourself there, doing it.

I'm talking about a specific activity you may find yourself procrastinating doing, painting, music, crafts... some artistic expression you love but aren't doing... these are techniques I've learned really motivate me to get started. Creating the space is important.

There's an unspeakable cliff we're heading towards, and I don't mean the fiscal one... the world is clearly becoming over populated... if we are moved to tears at every death, and our prayers would answer and no one died, overpopulation would be here sooner and what then would we do? We seem to be between a rock and a hard place... if everyone died of "natural causes" we would still rocket towards that cliff... so what do we do?

I think the answer is for all humanity to become one family. If we are all here for each other, imagine the support we could give one another, imagine what we could accomplish?

If someone dying puts a damper on your day, you should be unable to move, tortured every day, for tragedy occurs every day, every minute of every day, every second somewhere in this world... stop keeping people in your mind after the fact, after they're already gone! Put the living in your hearts now, and maybe, just maybe we can prevent these tragedies from occurring with such rampant, stampeding consistency. Death is a metronome that never ends...

If you want to see Cronenberg's VIDEODROME, don't bother, just look around... you're living it.

You know how you know you're a cat person more than a dog person? When you get mad at the dog for eating the cat's food, but think it's cute when the cat eat's the dog's food.

Well, it's fairly obvious to me, and I state this with a completely open heart and clear conscience, that while some of the Bible may be inspired by something divine... it's mostly a book of controlling the masses, setting policy, and definitely not authored by "God", and the sooner people figure this out, and stop molding themselves to an archaic and outdated worldview and start trusting their own hearts and doing what's right, the sooner we'll climb out of this darkness within which we find ourselves today.

This is a journal entry I wrote on my website back in 2007...

January 16, 2007 11:35 PM

Too often what the crazy, freak, scorned and mocked suggest today
are the rules we live by with reverence tomorrow, signed with our
own blood. Fantasy is not in the land of archetypes but in the land
where archetypes are born.

We know this truth with our gut, in tears at the knowing of that rapture of possibility.
Our selves nurtured by the archetype, souls chained by it.
Which is why you must go beyond the labels, that bind us
to this mortality to the immortal coil beyond it, beyond our sight.

Fantasy fans the fires of the ecstatic mind, turning men into meanings, ideas and ideologies.

There are voices that have no spokesman. Let us speak for them out of respect, out of love.
Who will run in the rain and not from it? Who will let the rain love them instead
of loving the rain only from afar, as one feels entitled to things they do not owe their very lives?

The passionate know of relationships as real, some only read about in books.
Dragons beyond their cubbyholes, their alternating current reality- we,
enjoin and entrusted to take part at our leisure, yet never doing so.

We the passionate who do not see doors leading from place to place
but from here to eternity, in the limitless expanse of infinity, dreams out of body,
lucid and ephemeral, fantasy is not fantastic, but every day life if you
only open yourself to the adventure before you.

When you get a paper cut, it's not the ghosts of trees turning on you, it's your guilt for all humans have done to them... your penance... a lifetime of gratitude.

If a cat has nine lives does that mean they also have nine souls? Now, though I've never heard anybody else ask this question before, it doesn't make it true, but it does make it something worth thinking about.

Whenever somebody asks me for the 3 digit number on the back of my credit card, alarms go off... seriously, I understand some systems require that number to process an order, but new systems don't, they use your address for that, and honestly, nobody should be asking you for that number, because once they have that and your card #, they have access to all your money in that account. I think asking for somebody's three digit card number is like asking a woman how old she is... it's just wrong. So I am hereby making a stand against asking for the three digit card number, and I'm calling it... OCCUPY CREDIT CARD.

When I was a kid, I loved those Christmas chocolates that are all hiding behind little doorways in a Christmas collage, you remember those? I think it's because I was so used to finding absolute shit behind every door at home, that it was actually nice to go to school and find something nice could actually be hiding behind a door for once... no offense mom I know you did your best.

The soulless masses huddle around the TV screen in a heirarchy of ignorance and indifference, layered in egospasms that color and define their world... a hampster wheel of desire, of food, sex, and productivity... get off the ride, all these things do not lead to fulfillment, but the endless round called Samsara... once you let all these things go you flip the coin... nirvana.

When I was a little kid, and my mom would drop us off at the Sunnyvale mall so she could work in the summertime, I would always save 25 cents to buy a Chocolate or Butterscotch lollypop at See's Candies at the end of the day... and I would eat it so slowly, like it was a precious edible jewel... I haven't had one since I was around 12 years old... I think I will buy some... I wonder what that will be like?

So I finally decided to watch The Guild, yes, that "The Guild"... and yes, I know I'm 5 years too late and Felicia Day has gone from who? to star on TV... but hey, in 2006 I was wandering around like a baby amoeba, and now I've put out an album, am working on music for a movie, and have a great job, just not on TV... so I guess we've all grown.... I even make my bed and fold clothes now... yes, I know, it's a friggin miracle.

I think it should be legal to kill people as long as you plant a tree right where their body falls... that way you stave off overpopulation and deforestation at the same time!

Website update: Added two of the comedy songs with lyrics, made all menus more intuitive, will be recording my song "Silly Song" I wrote on the fly while trying to make Laura Foust feel better over the phone, remember that? Finally will be recording it and putting it in the comedy section of the website... yay.

It seems like after Dave Chappelle vanished in a flash of marijuana smoke and industry sickness, comedy really went downhill, it can also be said that many of the great comedians died... leaving Louis CK as the last man standing. But thing

s are definitely picking up now, we've got Key and Peele, Chelsea Peretti, Workaholics, who else is out there people should know about? Besides me, of course where you can check out my debut album and tons of bonus songs on my website

I will be creating a comedy music playlist separate from the bonus playlist this weekend.

Today will be a music day, re-recording Boyfriends Suck, got a few technical ideas on the guitar part and changes, then go through the bonus songs to see if any will be going on the second album. Have a great Sunday all, and happy unholy days.

I think what happens is people try so hard to please others, believing that is the road to fulfillment, that when they fail to be fulfilled, they give up and express their anger and suffering outwardly, which simply compounds the problem, perpetually creating more anger, more suffering... I believe the solution is to stop hinging our happiness on the expectations we perceive in others, and be true to our own path, please ourselves, find peace with our paths and follow our inner passions... that way we find fulfillment within and express our joy and peace outwardly, then we no longer act from a need to please, but a compassion of others needs.

God made me a tree, somehow I became just the leaf. Shaky, on the limb, every gust of breeze whispering to me like ghosts through the night... The calm is too quiet, the crowd is too loud. The day is refracting and shattering light in the clouds. At night, there's a peace, when the nocturnal wanderers roam... and I go out too, and call it a home. From tree to leaf to ghost leaf be, until I reroot my soul, and bring me back to me.

Have you ever been hated by an entire group of people? Have you ever thought you were talking with a friend who turned out to be a Judas who betrayed your confidence? I'm not into horoscopes but man it told me yesterday morning not to trust new people with sensitive information, and it knew this would happen. I guess you gotta be real careful who you trust, be direct but don't subject yourself to anyone's definitions. People don't know your shoes, they rarely try to fit em, be honest with everybody, keep silent and roll on.

If you want to know what's really going on in the world... instead of turning on the news for a half hour every morning, sit and meditate for half hour every morning. Tune in to the source.

I am so sick and tired of the religious telling people they need to receive Jesus into their heart to be liberated from their problems. If you receive bunny rabbits and kittens into your heart it's just as good as receiving Jesus, just receive SOMETHING positive, that's all Jesus is about, holding something positive and inspirational in your heart that encourages you to work on your shit, so you can evolve as a spiritual being. That's it. Dogma in dogma out, get it? Religion is a selection of words plugged into a spiritual Mad Lib.

I want to talk about faith this morning... because it's a very intriguing animal. Some will say that you must have faith to find happiness... now they will prepare for you a table of exactly what they believe you should have faith in, usually it's tied in with religion, right? Faith in Jesus, God, angels... but perhaps then it really doesn't matter what you have faith in, as long as you have faith in something? I mean, if faith is simply putting your trust in things that one has no direct experience in, I can have faith in a kitten living in the moon smiling love down on me, right? Or the flying spaghetti monster, right Mike Seeba?

Which leads to the next point, is faith beneficial? Does faith help mankind reach its goals and potential? Think about it, if you have faith in anything, you will be more motivated, you'll feel what your doing has a bigger purpose, there will be some sort of pay off... does this mean faith is self-serving? Sure. But is faith always self-serving? Even when you do something completely selflessly, there is a selfish personal desire for redemption or enlightenment, you are in seeking mode, self-lack mode. Is faith then an illusion based on the idea that we lack in some way?

What would be a better solution for one than faith? Is reason better than faith? Is faith or reason the arbiter of wisdom? Faith relies on authority, tradition, dogma, enforced by praise and punishment. The other revolts against these impediments to the human will and intellect, seeking out innovation, solutions and harmony.

I have faith in reason, for reason is a tool I wield with personal responsibility and ingenuity to forge a path through this world... whereby faith alone one becomes a servant to unseen powers, other's wills, and beliefs. This is why Aleister Crowley once said, Love is the Law, Love under Will. Pope John Paul II once said in his Fides et Ratio, “Faith and reason are like two wings on which the human spirit rises to the contemplation of truth."

I think ghosts are trying to communicate with me through smudges on my glasses...

Isn't it funny how other countries ban Monsanto, they understand how bad they are for local farmers, the buying and control of enzymes, GMO in secrecy, Terminator seeds as a serious threat to agriculture, Round up and control of Round-up resistant seeds, treatment of cows and livestock and food supply...

While they ban Monsanto, America's president Barack Obama appoints them to run the FDA and oversee our food supply... Michelle Obama, she plays a good game about caring about America, but I don't see her having a conversation about this.

Others ban Monsanto for evil practice, America makes them overlords... I used to think my country was such a flawless place, that we were true humanitarians, stewards of the world... of course that's just what I was indoctrinated through media to believe.

The truth is America seeks to control all natural resources in the middle east, and makes sure the true humanitarians are disposed of, their named smeared forever.

I was born in America, I cannot call this country the greatest country in the world, not when we turn our backs on humanity, prioritize war and empirical control over the health and education of an entire people, forgo infrastructure, paint pretty lies over the ever-growing cracks of society...

Obama recently said no country should stand for others dropping bombs on them... this is after Obama spent the last year drone bombing 5 countries in the middle east, tallying up record civilian deaths. We are not hated for our freedom, we are hated for the freedoms we destroy every day around the world.

America created Al Qaeda. America is the only country two drop nuclear bombs on another country, not once but once.

America needs to stop talking the talk, and start walking the walk, for I have become ashamed of this land that started with such promise... but we must amend our ways, to those we have wronged... first we must approach the native americans, the african americans, the melting pot people we opened our borders to, we must redeem ourselves, but first we must get rid of the cancer that plagues us... educate and invigorate a righteous path of the informed, the inspired, and the lionized.

Shit, I should run this country.

Remember, you will rarely get credit for the things you do, but you will always get credit for the things people think you did.

I think God should have designed hair on people's heads a bit more intelligently... I think the way he should have worked it... negative emotion makes your hair fall out and positive emotion makes your hair grow. First of all, it would make it really easy to spot the at risk youth, and secondly, you could say hey your hair is growing back, I'm glad to see you're feeling better! Stuff like that... this just proves I should have gotten the role of God, that other guy is really slippin'. I would have invented Smart Hair. Mood hair color changes... imagine the possibilities!

Don't take anything personally, barriers are a device of fear meant to keep oneself intact. Love gives them the freedom to act, and free themselves from which they feel they lack.

If we live in such a free country, why are there more empty homes than homeless people? Matter of fact, why are there homeless people at all?

I am boycotting the PAPYRUS font. If you post anything using this font, I will not read it, I will not like it, I will not share it. I might call you names, I might cross the line. I might act in an offensive and juvenile manner. I will plead insanity, and you will unfriend me, and we will go our separate ways and I will feel that I had done a good thing.

Papyrus font is really out of control and it must stop now, it's like an invasive species. Please help save the other fonts.

Thank You.

Am I legally insane if I tell my cats to put on shoes and a jacket or they can't go outside?

Created an awesome ketchup replacement tonight, because ketchup really sucks, it's just all sugary crap that overpowers your food... so here's what I came up with and it was really good:

Sriracha with mustard and chili pepper

Perfect.

Today's football between Cleveland and Dallas proves one thing... God hates Ohio, and who can blame him? First the rivers caught fire, LeBron defected, The Browns are the worst team I've ever seen in history. Ohio is downwind from Michigan, and the people think Skyline is Chili, I don't know what that is, but it's not Chili. The weather is like Siberia, and Ohio drivers are the Chinese drivers of America. And last but not least, there is no worse smell than a woman taking off four layers of flannel.

Ohio! Rethink your life!

I had a tough childhood, but when I look back on it, I look for the moments that shine, that stand out, like jewels in tall grass, and they are always the moments of giving, of love, the moments I miss, I long for... and the hard times, well they taught me how to love and express my greatest gifts, I would not give them up for the world, for they were the gems I'd picked up along the way.

Most of my wounds were self inflicted, but I was fortunate to meet remarkable people through whom my heart was lifted.

Did you know that in 1959, the top Federal Income Tax rate was 91% for regular income?

The rich paid tons of taxes and still got everything they could ever want... then they realized they could do offshore accounts, outsource everything, lower quality while raising costs, and get loopholes and tax cuts...

When you have billionaires in one country, and children starving in another... something is terribly wrong. And when in that same country of billionaires, there are more empty houses than homeless people... we have led ourselves so far astray, we risk the chance of truly losing an understanding of what it means to be human.

Sometimes I like to wave my hand in front of my cat's face and say, "These are not the droids you're looking for." For some reason, it really freaks them out.

If the two things keeping you going are your faith in God and your love of people... I have no problem with that. Never judge the tightrope upon which another is walking.

Five movies I saw recently I would recommend, genre expressed for your interest.

Argo - based on a true story
The Brave One - drama
Looper - science fiction
Sinister - horror
Skyfall - action

Lifting your leg up high over a baby gate and accidentally smacking your toes against the door frame is not as awesome as you might imagine.

Paper cuts are the tiny ninja slices from the spirit of trees... when we move too hastily, the ninja catches us unaware and gives us a little reminder... breathe appreciation, avoid the ninja.

Life is like a movie, you can choose to see how everything is connected, or you can wait for the "good parts", you make the choice whether your life will be one of meaning or one of pointlessness. No one can follow your dreams for you.

Paper cuts are the tiny ninja slices from the spirit of trees... when we move too hastily, the ninja catches us unaware and gives us a little reminder... breathe appreciation, avoid the ninja.

If people can choose one book to follow all their lives, I think everyone should get to choose which book they're going to follow, and I've chosen Winnie the Pooh's House at Pooh Corner.

So last night I dreamed I went into space, it was all very 2001 A Space Odyssey'y...and when we got there, we circumnavigated the stars in little transporter jetpacks, but then we noticed that a transparency was appearing from deep in space, like cracks in armor, or stucco chips flaking off the black star speckled sky like wallpaper... another universe was breaking through our own, taking over... it was going to destroy our universe...

But then, we saw it grow until it covered everything, and it did not destroy our universe, it did not take over, it merely superimposed itself on ours like a sepina tint over our world...

We transported back down to earth where apparently World War 3 was in progress and every nation in the world had turned against the United States, but not in a nuclear war, a ground war, you see they decided we didn't deserve this land anymore, and they were going to take it back...

Man I hate these end of the world dreams, I need to figure out what the fuck is causing them and put a stop to it... maybe I'm eating too much sugar before bed...

If God intended us to read he'd have given us language. But he didn't, we invented it, perhaps, it too is a way to avoid deeper communication with life?

We become dependent upon language that we forget about the beacon of communication spoken by our bodies, our history, and our intentions...

I think a lot about non verbal communication and the beacon of my intentions, I believe it's the language insects and animals listen to from us... this is why I never kill any creature in my home, though I will lightly and kindly set them free into the world... a beacon of love is far better than one of death and control... but now I fear I am far afield of the eReader spirit abomination concept...

And I have not really thought about it... I don't believe anything can be an abomination to my spirit unless I let it, I believe much is subjective and we must abide by the tingles of our own hearts...

I don't find my fingers need tree corpse pages to imbibe the inner mural on the painted walls the author has set before me....

While I agree with Faust, I believe one can retain the spirit of the thing without the thing itself... you see, the spirit is within, it's the intention we bring that makes the bird to sing or breaks its mighty wing.

Lately I've been unplugging from every form of indoctrination that the corrupt create to keep me enslaved... TV, News, Consumerism, Fast Food, Marketing, Statism, etc.. at this point in my life, I think I'm mostly free from it all, the only connections I keep are the ones I choose, but even so, I'd like to get out of the box, even semi-permeable, it has many locks... I've been saving up money, and perhaps I'll someday just quit my job, with $50-$100,000 in the bank, and just... travel. Catch up on the things I've been setting aside, my books I want to read, the ones I want to write, get more involved in my music, particularly my second album... visit old friends, family... I think I could make a go of it, I've got a real wanderlust to roam... it beckons from the road like an angel... it feeds me nightmares when I stop listening, buried in the shit I've accumulated... but I am awake, and awakened I will go, through the dream and fields I go... back, and forth, swaying with the wind, breaking through listening within and moving forward in synchronous relation to life.

In a way they've recreated James Bond as a sort of Hero's Journey that borders on Sysyphys... he is constantly becoming, never to truly become what we want him to be... he'll have his moments, but he is cursed like all of us, to a life of imperfection, searching, full of questions....

Earlier incarnations of Bond were too flawless, too cocky... Sean Connery, and onward, a bit sexist, cocky, but so full of themselves...

Daniel Craig is the first to bring a sense of disenchantment to the role and I find that incredibly refreshing.

Those who are committed to helping the earth and humanity through the careful cultivation of marijuana are the Keebler Elves of Cannabis.

Something I learned this week, a little secret to upgrading your phone when you are not eligible for the discounts...

There IS a loophole to paying full price on a new phone and this might help you guys when it comes time to upgrade if you are not eligible for the discounted price and are facing the full price of $650, or whatever the price may be...

Here's what you do:

Add a second line to yo

ur account choosing the discounted new upgrade version phone which gives you the discounted price of instead of $650 or whatever full price.

Get that all set up, then when the new phone arrives, call your carrier, move your number to the new phone and cancel the second line.

Now, you will incur an early cancellation fee on that line of maximum $175, but it sure beats paying that $650 for the new phone.

In total, if you did the math, you paid $374 instead of $650 to upgrade out of eligibility.

Sounds complex, but it works.

I feel more informed after watching a single episode of Democracy Now than after watching MSNBC/FOX/CNN for a year. Though I'd never watch FOX news for a year, that's insane.

John Boehner says we need to shore up entitlement programs, ie. medicaid, medicare, social security... a program people have paid into their entire lives.
It's extraordinary, because it's the Republicans saying, let's help the wealthiest Americans, while kicking the poor when they're down.
This is why I despise John Boehner passionately.

While I was growing up, when around 15 years old I was diagnosed bi-polar, or as I like to call it BAD, or Border-Line Amazing Disorder... my IQ was off the charts at around 190, but kids have more connections in their brains they say you don't need, which skews IQ tests and aren't reliable. I never felt better than anyone else, in fact I felt different, but not in a good way.

In elementary school, day 1, first grade, I refused to say the Pledge of Allegiance, I don't think I could have told you why except that it felt wrong at the time, doing something everyone else was doing, putting my hand over my heart for what? It felt like signing over my very soul, I now appreciate these little, visceral impulses, like a spider sense when some minute personal injustice is being done, when the wool is being pulled, when the lie is being crafted...

I acted out a lot, I had no father, his memory was a painful one, I remember the day he finally moved out; I was 3, they finalized the divorce when I was 5. That house was a ghost story. It had rampant bees, a Dracula style seemingly endless rolling hill behind it, I got my first electric shock there, it woke me to my first substantive memories as well.

The street wasn't safe, the cars flew by like howling demons, horses up on the hill looked down from a better world, I watered a giant rock in the front yard creating my own civil society of native villagers, I became their God, and I was kind, feeding water down their rivers, cuts and grooves in the ancient rock.

When life throws you drama, instead of turning it inward on yourself, remember it is you who nurtures Heaven or Hell.

Your environment does not create your state of mind, your state of mind creates your environment. First build your state of mind, then everything you do will be state of the art ♥

So I believe I have the solution for Poverty in America. The homeless issue, the jobs issue, and the food issue. And here it is.

Take abandoned homes and schools, hire social workers, teachers, gardeners, etc... and turn them into housing for the homeless. Revive the yards into community gardens and kitchens, farmer's markets to pay for some bills along with federal assistance, etc...

All this is doable, we just need to take some money from the bloated oil subsidies, junk food chemical subsidies, corporate protections, loopholes, corruption money, and defense budget, and it would not even cost much and it would create jobs.

You're welcome.

The first horror I ever truly loved is The Abnominable Dr. Phibes... I remember watching it on TV when I was a kid, must have been late '70s, early '80s... this was before I even knew who Vincent Price was... that's how you know when a famous celebrity deserves their fame... your impression is not colored by the celebrity... I felt the same about Denzel Washington in The Mighty Quinn, loved the guy in that, had no idea who he was. Great feeling... it's the sapling of honesty, that's the plant we should water every day.

I am so in tune with my life that every day without fail, I'm exactly one day ahead of my horoscope.

First thing Ohioans noticed about me when I moved to Ohio... I talk really fast, they knew I was from California immediately. First thing I noticed about Ohioans... they don't use conjunctions in their vernacular... that window needs to be fixed becomes, that window needs fixed. I imagine if Shakespeare were from Ohio, To be or not To be, would simply be: Or not?

I discovered that no matter what I Google Image Searched for, at least one porn picture was in the results. I then set out to find something I could search for that returned no porn results... I searched baby hedgehog, and so far it's the only thing that came up with no porn... I then set out to make it that instead of porn coming up no matter what you search for, baby hedghogs would come up no matter what you search for... so for a week I asked every facebook friend to google image search baby hedgehogs...

So ... umm... anyone working on that whole, ice is melting, no reflecting radiation and heat from the sun back into space, maybe building something reflective to cover Greenland and the Arctic so we don't like, you know... all die?

You know all the ice in Greenland which has grown and receded for the last like ever has all but gone at a profoundly accelerated rate... I mean I know abortion and gay marriage is so important, Monsanto even moreso, but this might be the biggest issue of them all and I'm just wondering if anyone is brainstorming a solution here? It seems like a real solution would probably cost a lot of money, which might require some kind of government intervention, perhaps all the world governments working together... just a thought... this isn't Mayan 2012 bullshit, this is the real deal... or am I mistaken? I dunno, what do you think?

I love doodling, and I've found that as an adult, letter writing is my best excuse to keep doing it. So write to me, and I will write back with doodles!!! I used to just write people, but no one wrote back, so now here's some glowing incentive!

Obama won the presidency, the House still remains Republican... now that Obama's campaigning days are over, will he pull a JFK and start to do some real work? Is Obama up for real change he promised in 2008? If so, it's time to take on that defense budget, give money back to infrastructure, rails, roads, schools, and the environment. It's time to replace Monsanto in the FDA, it's time to get money out of politics, stop bailing out Wallstreet and work for the American people who elected you, it's time to call off the war on medical marijuana, it's time Mr. President, time to do the heavy lifting you talked about, then put off for four years.

If you voted for Mitt Romney we can still be friends. If you eat meat we can be friends, if you don't like vegetables we can be friends, if you like rap, if you like country, we can be friends. If you're Christian, if you're a Jew, if you're Buddhist, Muslim, or Rastafarian, we can be friends. But if you rated Paranormal Activity 4 a TEN on IMDb, we can never be friends, I have to draw the line someplace.

The truth will set you free, but a lie will keep you in the chains with which you've grown comfortable.

If the religious are right in saying the universe is only 9000 years old, maybe that guy was right who asked me, a 40 year old man if I was born yesterday.

Well, we know how long things take to happen: rocks to be moved by water across desert landscapes, how long it takes for volcanoes and mountains to form, glaciation, entropy, decay of bodies, fossil records, earth's crust, tectonic movement...

The documentary series "How the Earth was Made" is one of the best doc series I've ever seen, Season 2 Episode 3, The Birth of the Earth is a must see for discovering a truly viable way the planet might have formed, you know in reality, beyond the fantasy of children's books.
When all evidence points to the universe being billions of years old, it's going to take more than a human being telling me it's not to make me believe them... the argument that God put fossils here to test our faith, that's what you say to idiots to make them controllable.

It should also be known that unlike religious theory which has no evidence and is purely fantasy, err I mean faith based, another word for believing in what you're told because actually looking for the truth is too scary, scientific theory is not about wild guesses but that which all evidence points towards.

When people tell me that religion helps people, oh I don't doubt that, they're called comfort lies for a reason. When you are dealing with great stress and life issues, a little comfort can go a long way, but you're not supposed to live there, you're supposed to be comforted, then keep moving, keep striving, keep searching... life is not about knowing, it's about not knowing. Certainty is the death of all knowledge.

The sun beams down on us, 90% of its heat is reflected back into space... humans are causing the ice to melt at an accelerated rate, and thus, the sun beams down on the dark water instead, and darkness absorbs the heat, and thus, the planet warms at an accelerated rate... the climate is hyper charged, the climate is on steroids, because of what we've done to the atmosphere... maybe we should design some kind of reflective material to cover immense areas of the earth to reflect the sun back to space to solve this problem since we clearly cannot bring the ice back... I wonder if anyone is working on this?

Artisanal products are more expensive to produce, so of course they're more expensive to purchase but the real value comes in knowing that they're not made by some faceless soul-destroying corporation.

One thing I love about old movies, they always have those antique cigarette boxes all over the place... I don't even care if you don't smoke, those are just so classy, everyone should have one.

Chris Christie's sucking up to Obama in a big way for Jersey, but you know he's still voting for the Mitt Romney bot 2000.

When did it become unrealistic to be against drone strikes, Monsanto, endless war, Wallstreet bailouts all at the expense of women's rights, healthcare, education, infrastructure, railways, roadways, civil liberties, medical marijuana, proper regulations, relief wells, conflict of interest vs judgment. When did it become unrealistic to care about the substantive issues, you know, the ones both major political candidates don't discuss?

So, I figured out what the phrase "Into the mystic" means today... it's that moment you turn around and your cat is just gone.

You know how ravers suck on pacifiers because the drugs they're taking makes them grind their teeth? Why don't they just make awesome vitamin rich nutrient yummy ring pop pacifiers for those events? Man, I could make a killing... literally...

Third world does not mean less valued life, and third party does not mean less valued message.

Every year on Halloween I find some little way to make it memorable. It started with creating the tradition of baking my late grandmother's famous Divinity cookies every Halloween, then telling kids my cat Jupiter was my pet bear dressed up as a cat for Halloween, upping the ante on decorations every year, last year I started giving out ring pops to the parents, they were always pleasantly surprised, and there's really almost nothing better than seeing the joy in someone's eyes who were a moment ago quite apathetic. Running out to cars and parents on the sidewalk to give them their ring pops was really fun.

This year, a zombie on the grass, hanging talking skeleton holding his severed head, and a black cat that hisses as you walk by, and anyone who could Gangnam Style dance got a ring pop too.

On the Halloween play list was the soundtrack to the new horror movie Sinister, which is actually just one 24 minute EP by Ullver called Teachings in Silence. Purple People Eater, and tons of other Horror film themes and fun music... even found some Halloween harps called Lucifer's Harps, my sister wanted harps, we found some. All in all, another awesome Halloween.

Watching the horror film "THE BAY" today, 30 minutes in and I'm thinking, this feels like a real documentary, but in a good way, because I've said that before about a horror movie and not in a good way, (Poughkeepsie Tapes), but this movie is able to convey a sense of environmental awareness in a way that isn't corny (Cabin Fever), because believe it or not, there are real concerns people don't pay much attention to when it comes to how they live, what they buy to clean their clothes, to feed themselves and their children, they don't understand the chemicals they use, the chemicals used in plastics, how heat leeches those chemicals into what they drink and eat, the packaging, the effects of those chemicals we now know to stunt the growth of fetal brain tissue, effectively dumbing down generations of people, yes, the chemical I speak of is found in 99% of all pregnant women, because they don't start using BPA free materials until they get pregnant or until after they have the baby, and the chemical has already done its damage... we're talking about real dangers that effect human genetics, and development.

Hopefully this movie will be taken a bit seriously, and people will consider how they spend their money, what they put in and on our bodies.

I've been saying this for years, and every day more and more people are taking their power back in the way they spend their hard earned money, because everyone wants to be healthy and happy, but to be so, you must choose to be informed, don't take my word for it, research for yourself, the facts are all out there.

Obstacles arise, that is the nature of the world. How we handle them defines our character.

I really don't care who becomes President in my American homeland. Why? Because all that a presidential bid decides is what manner in which the American people will be screwed, not whether they get screwed or not... think of it like the horror movie Cabin in the Woods... we're all in a basement and every presidential candidate is simply a different avenue towards our demise.

You choose Obama and you get drone strikes, Monsanto, a healthy Wallstreet and deceived Mainstreet, a war on medical marijuana, endless war, no relief wells on drilling, no accountability for Big business, oil subsidies, yadda yadda yadda...

You choose Mitt Romney and you get drone strikes, Monsanto, a healthy Wallstreet and deceived Mainstreet, a war on medical marijuana, endless war, no relief wells on drilling, no accountability for Big business, oil subsidies, yadda yadda yadda...
add to that no healthcare, no education, no environment, no FEMA, no middle class...

The only way this ends well is if we leave the basement, we escape the virtual political reality, we take care of each other ourselves, because face it, they're not going to do it for us.

Relationships take willingness, to care about the things we don't have first person interest in, to put ourselves aside, with compassion, with interest, with care, to get to know another person, or any living thing, ourselves...

We all notice right away when we connect with someone and when we don't. We can pursue substantive moments at every turn, but willingness, a desire has to derive from both sides of the road, or there's no road to travel...

We are all connected, we are all unified, but to awaken the spark that makes that connection real, does require effort.

When that effort is not there, when that desire does not exist, when that spark is not met with enthusiasm, interest, desire... I will not waste my time, time is precious, even as an illusion it seals our fate. And time is so short, too short to squander on those who cannot see our gifts. Save it for those who do.

Let's consider Christianity for a moment... during the Dark Ages 300 to 700 AD the entirety of Europe was like a giant mosh pit of massacre and power struggle murder sprees... the fall of Rome, the rise and fall of the Byzantine Empire, Islam, Frankish empire, feudalism, the Vikings, Bulgarian empire, and many others... eventually culminating in the coronation of Charlemagne in 800 AD... this was a desperate attempt to bring all of Europe under one umbrella in an effort to end the killing and endless war, well politically, but actually the king was simply manipulated into thinking this was a good idea, and well, did it work? What happened next, you ask? Well, it led to the Crusades and the Inquisition which resulted in more deaths than the entirety of all the killing during the Dark Ages previously passed, only outdone by The Black Plague which killed 75 million people. Yes, this was a rather ironic situation, you see we learned that killing doesn't fix killing, so what did nature do? Killed everyone. Does this mean the world is heading towards another extinction level event? I dunno, but I'd say just to be on the safe side, stay away from rats who run with a purpose.

Obama only came out against don't ask don't tell when smarter more courageous minds used the logic against the military to show its ineffectiveness, a judge did that... then Obama jumped on board.

Obama only came out for gay marriage once it became politically advantageous to do so, few years ago he was against it.

Obama did nothing to make relief wells mandatory after BP, Obama holds the same foreign policies as Republicans, with drone strikes, bailing out Wallstreet, big money in politics.

Obama declared war on medical marijuana, signed NDA for the indefinite detention of Americans, backed down from closing Guantanamo without a fight, and appointed all of Bush's old advisors, Goldmann lobbyists, and Monsanto's heads to the FDA.

If you were expecting hope and change from Obama, look again. Obama has a friendlier message, but his actions are the same old bullshit we've always seen.

If you want real change, you have to look at the real issues, that's why I'm supporting Jill Stein, the Green Party candidate for President of the United States.

I was checking this thing out, it's pretty awesome as it can do espresso, coffee and lattes all in one

When is the last time you teed up a football on one of those cute little rubber holder thingies and just kicked it as hard and as far as you could? Feels great... also, when was the last time you called a football tee a "cute little rubber holder thingy?"

I think the only true evidence of ghosts is when you get that itch in the exact spot between your shoulder blades that you can't reach from above, below, or side... ya, that's the ghosts messing with you. Only ghosts know the exact spot humans can't reach to scratch... you know how they say hindsight is 20/20? Well, once you die you understand everything about life... this is one of those things.

The moment you feel you have something genius to say, that's the best time to remain silent and let the universe convey - by reflection, listening to soft detection of the word in light made manifest by night. Let listening be the candle by which you write.

What is God? Is God at the end of the bridge on meditation mountain? What is the bridge but the river of thoughts passing very quickly by? And how then does one cross the bridge but by letting go of attachment to the stream and returning ever present to its side? Where then is God in the present moment? Here is the dichotomy that separates man from wisdom...

After watching Sinister you should definitely check out the new animation "Hotel Transylvania" it's adorable... Dracula teaching his daughter how to fly, so she leaps off the bed with a helmet on, and she turns into an adorable bat wearing a little helmet, it's so cute!

My friend Yen Vu has been giving me free AMC movie tickets as gifts, which is awesome I love her, so last night when I decided to go to the movies because I had 5 free tickets saved up... to see some great horror films!!! (Great being debatable), I took my free tix! When I got to the theater, 3 cute girls asked me if I would buy them tickets to Paranormal Activity 4, they handed me the money, and then it hit me... I gave them back their money and instead gave them 3 of my free tickets. I used the last 2 free tickets to see Silent Hill and Sinister. I did however get lost riding my bike both ways which gave me one hell of a workout, and my butt hurts today.

All in all, a great adventure and one I need to do more often, maybe a weekend tradition, the theater is so close to my house, yet far enough away for me to get hopelessly lost...

Shopping for the lowest prices is not smart shopping, a smart shopper looks at the ingredients, the companies they're buying from, and what they're supporting. TO be a smart shopper requires one being an informed shopper, a shopper who educates themselves on what they're putting in their bodies. After all, we all want to be healthy and happy, but we're all not aware of how to go about doing that, because our society doesn't encourage this awareness.

All the grocery stores compete with each other on prices, but if you look at the quality of their products, they're all selling the same junk no one should be buying in the first place.

Hurricane Sandy is Karma's payback for Obama killing that fly on national television a few years back... see? I knew I could find a way to blame this on Obama if I really tried.

Whenever I Google Image search for almost anything, I get pornography in the results.
The only thing I have ever searched for that resulted in 0 porn hits was a search for baby hedgehogs. By this methodology, I would like to eventually get to the point that searching for almost anything will result in baby hedgehogs in the results instead of pornography. Let's replace all pornography results with baby hedgehogs, help me do this by searching Google images for baby hedgehogs today.

There's something sad and strange about people who use Facebook as a means to hold private conversations in public. Those posts that are just vague fish hooks that no one understands, meant for one person but sent to everyone. I wish people would simply be direct and talk to each other if they have a problem. We need to relearn how to talk to each other in a direct, honest way that communicates our feelings. The Internet is breeding the communication skills out of us, as surely as the bees are vanishing in a network of cell phones and pesticides, so is man's own ability to network vanishing in a drowning sea of social networking. Now that, Alanis Morissette, is ironic.

Don't Like, Reply. Don't nod your head unless your headbanging.
Don't criticize, don't compliment unless your heart's ready, and you're ready to compromise.

I have concluded that sit-ups are evil.. which means now I have to conquer this evil...

I was gone just then for awhile because I got it in my head to take everything out of the kitchen cabinets, clean and organize everything! I'm in a very productive mood today... is it a manic episode? Is it the carrot and celery I ate for breakfast? Is it love? Who cares.

In the secular world there is as much a glass ceiling and suppression of women's rights as is found in the world of most religions.

Secular and Religious are the same the same way that Democrats and Republicans are the same...

From the surrounding media to the scriptures, our lives are carefully seeded and controlled by sacred tenets of suppression.

The secular and scientific, the religious and the duty bound applaud themselves for evading the sheep trap of doctrine and task, truth doled out to them by the media and dear leaders as if their eyes, their minds, their hearts needed herding.

What then is freedom? To be free we must not be free to be a slave, we must be free from every yolk. We are all indoctrinated into something... we go from one frying pan to the next, saying, "Ah! Now I am free", but it is not the world that chains us, but convinces us to chain ourselves. It promises protection, it tells us things only a child can understand... oh wait, I'm quoting the movie Poltergeist now... where was I? Oh, right, freedom.

And is there such thing as free will? If we choose a path out of fear, to escape the Hells man creates for us in their special books, and create Gods to be their authors, and we believe them, what circle of Hell is this? What chance for freedom is there in the craft paper paradigm?

Mustn't we move beyond those worlds? After all, is any world not but a reflection of mind? And a free mind is not attached to worlds, but is free to explore them all, like a tiny space man floating in emptiness, unattached, free to see all threads connected... like a river flows endlessly to the sea, and we are but drops of water, we build our tiny boats out of memory, belief oars our way in circles and sometimes onward, will you help another build a boat or bash them with your mighty rudder? Perhaps therein lies our choice, to help ourselves or help another.

The whole idea of Juries is fucking nuts... the majority of people are morons, if I have to stand trial, I want smart people who know how to use the law to help me to figure this shit out and decide my fate, not some random weirdos society deems as my peers... and if it's my peers, shouldn't I be able to choose them myself? Our court system is a complete ciircus and I will have no part in this fiasco.

Jesus like any great teacher does not want you to live for them, they want you to live for yourself. To live your own life, walk your own path, to love one another as family, as kindred, as One. To live for Jesus is to mistake the teachings. If you are to live for One, you must see the Jesus particle in everyone, you must live for everyone, the moth and the butterfly, the sun and the rain, seek the silent road within, beyond the rushing roaring river of cacophany and sin. Beyond the collective din, there is a greater becoming that cannot become for it's always simply been.

One could write entire books on how horror has evolved over the last 100 years, it's socially relevant ambitions, cyclical monsters that represent economic and social anxieties.

Take for example, Godzilla, a creature created in Japan to represent the deeply rooted perspective shift after the bombing of Hiroshima, Nagasaki, and the horrors of world war 2, now look at Cloverfield, a similar monster that was created to represent the shift in consciousness in America after 9/11.

Throughout film and even story, fable, and oral tradition before the written word, there have been archetypes to represent the darker natures of man, the monster under the bed, the subconscious, the waltz over the dark water... Horror changes but it always stays the same, in its core it shines a light into the darkness of the human mind, investigates the cobwebbed and forgotten corners of consciousness.

The horror of the '70s was a very story based character driven world of cinema, in the '80s, we became more physical, more visceral, showing the true of the nightmare rather than talking about it. Today, horror is shifting yet again, from the visceral to the visual to the hyper surreal, and perhaps back around to the storybook form eventually in its cyclical nature. I believe the found footage genre is representative of the bridge between the two, and in the next five to ten years we will see a return to character driven horror and thoughtful writing.

Or not... Who can say? What happens in the world, effects consciousness, so we cannot say with certainly where it will lead, but what we can say with certainty is that eventually, everything comes full circle.

What's worse, Mitt Romney saying Syria is Iran's route to the sea, (a puzzling claim, considering that Syria shares no border with Iran) or Sarah Palin using the fact that she can see Russia from her house as evidence of international political experience?

It's a little hypocritical for Romney to chastise China for not playing fair, when that's exactly how Romney made and continues to make his money, by counting on China not playing fair.

Romney tries to bully the moderator and gets smacked down! I should have made popcorn for this!

Because no one cares about Monsanto, drone strikes, NDA, war on medical marijuana, appointing lobbyists from Goldman, letting BP off the hook without establishing mandatory relief wells... you know, the stuff neither side talks about that just prove how ridiculous and corrupt our political system is.

I'll care about politics, when someone starts caring about the real issues and stops deceiving the public with the cosmetic ones.

I've always been blessed with incredibly vivid dreams, some lucid, some out of body, some multi POV, my dreams usually contain great visual depth and weight, I've felt the sun licking me with solar flares, angels, demons, upside down oceans carrying whales across the stars...

A woman in my dream last night spoke this quote to me. I have no idea if the author is real or if the quote is real, but this is what she said:

I watched the first three episodes of "Magic City" and it has potential but I wasn't too impressed.

Much ado about nothing, little happens, or care deeply about, formulaic and forced, no characters I feel any connection to or care about... yet. The reflective music playing every time Ike (Jeffrey Dean Morgan) shows up, is reminiscent of an episode of Get Smart, the stereotypical characters are a bit too James Bond and James Bond villain.

It's a couple steps up from Pan Am, but quite a few steps down from Boardwalk Empire and Mad Men.

I won't make any judgment until after I've seen 3 episodes, but the real problem with the show is the dialog. It's trite and cliched, and trying too hard to be clever. It doesn't have the spark that makes a great series, you can't fake that, and it tries so hard to copy it from other better shows, namely The Sopranos and Mad Men, but it has no vision, no unique take on history, and it brings nothing new to the table... I found myself getting bored during the second episode.

Episode 3 is just dull, and they end every episode with something shocking to try to trick you into thinking it was so edgy and stirring, but I just shake my head, the show is empty and needs to really get going or the audience will.

This is not a false alarm, this is not a test.

Monsanto could cause the end of all life on this planet. Obama appointed the heads of Monsanto to the FDA. And we care about which Presidential candidate is going to be bad for marriage and equality? Those are great issues, but the life of the planet is at stake, and no one is talking about it. Cancer is up, pesticides and tolerance to those chemicals by plants, breathing in these chemicals, diabetes, obesity, Monsanto makes Round Up and the crops that are Round Up resistant, they're making money on the seeds and the chemicals, terminator seeds kill off seeds after a season, they're strong arming local farmers, Monsanto has to be stopped, before it's too late.

Vote the right way on Proposition 37.

Don't pretend to be perfect, but don't accept anyone's definition of you that falls short of it.

Convincing you that voting makes a difference is a societies census for sheep assurance.

Jesus should come back to Earth as a baby hedgehog, because I'd follow a baby hedgehog to the ends of the Earth.

Raindrops are just tiny spaceships for micro-aliens and when we get wet, the bubble bursts, and the tiny aliens inside crawl into our pores, and when we get drenched, the aliens take over our bodies, and once they're inside of you, they peek out your pores, until a tiny alien is looking out of every pore of your body, and then they jack you into their group consciousness and you see everything...

If I don't give you what you want, it's not because I don't understand you, sometimes it's precisely because I do.

The problem with politics is that its primary purpose is not to make the world a better place, but to make the other party look at fault for the drama of the day.

According to Watson & Crick's philosophy on evolution through mutation, it is impossible for us to be here by chance. So our creators, whether they are the entity some call "God" or something else must shake their heads when they see what a depraved society we've created.

Your true friends think of what they can get out of you, they guilt you when you do something to better yourself if it stops them from being able to use you and your good will. Your true friends don't care about you bettering yourself, about you taking strides of personal empowerment, of encouraging you to move forward and becoming more than you were before, they only want you to stay where you are, uninspired, easily manipulated, through guilt and victimhood, until they decide they don't need you anymore and you discover you never mattered anyway... they don't say congratulations, that must have been a tough decision, or hey that's a big step, you've come a long way, they only think how this effects them, how it makes them feel small and unsatisfied, oh wait, no, those are the other guys... which guy do you want to be?

While I have been very vocal about what I dislike about Obama's and Romney's policies, I will be voting for Obama because I care about healthcare and women's rights.

Different scents can be very nostalgic. Is there a cooking aroma that takes you back to a certain time in your life?

Peculiar, Fresh Wave air deodorizer crystals take me back to the house we lived at when I was three years old in the mid '70s... it's very weird, but it transports me every single time.

I was going to watch the horror film "The Reeds" on Netflix this morning, until I saw they used the PAPYRUS font for their credits and I knew right away it was going to suck. Yes, I believe you should judge a movie by its font work.

Wow, I just found out a line repeated in the song "Catapult" by REM is "Did we miss anything", and I always thought they were saying, "Two dreamers still in bed"

A person is standing in one inch of water in a stream, holding on tightly to a stick in the ground with their eyes tightly closed, and they're afraid the water is going to rise and drown them, or that a waterfall is just around the corner, and you're telling them, "Hey there!, you're holding onto a stick and the water is an inch high, open your eyes, you're fine." And they won't believe you, they won't open their eyes, let go of the stick... they don't believe you.

When I experience this in conversation, I find the only way to help them is to get down in that world with them, validate the experience of the water, or whatever that experience is, and then find your way out together, it's like jumping in the hole with them because you know the way out. If you just say it isn't real, well, it's real to them, so you have to approach it as real WITH them, then you can talk with them from that perspective and if they feel validated and respected they'll more likely listen to you, and eventually let it go, find their own way out, look around with new eyes.

We type on our keyboards, in QWERTY, but we live on this earth typing QWARTY. We talk peace, but we live war. Live peace.

Appointing the VP of Monsanto to the head of the FDA is like appointing Hitler to the head of the JCC, it's insanity and somehow no one seems to mind, no one seems to talk about it, and the Republicans don't use it as ammunition against the President in the election, why? Because it's A-OK to everybody

When you understand that you deserve the same compassion that you give to others, you become a wellspring of nourishment, like a pitcher pours into the top glass in a pyramid of glasses represents the soul that overflows and nourishes the mind and flows down to nourish the heart and flows down to nourish the body, and it's simply a matter of listening. Listening to the body, listening to the heart, listening to the mind, and having faith in the soul by letting go of attachment to all phenomena. Be a wellspring and you will nourish the world.

This just in, surely if you think it might be fun to start watching that show FRINGE... be prepared to start from the very beginning... this show gets convoluted and fast... your mind may very well explode, or implode, leaving you a lobotomized and shell-shocked mess on your floor, wondering what happened?, where did it all go? And is your name really Shirley?

Interesting: "China Doll" by The Grateful Dead and "Wearing the Inside Out" by Pink Floyd sound eerily similar.

Thank You cats, for showing me that there is someone on this earth more self-important than me.

When one understands the difference between Wisdom and Ignorance, there is no longer a need for Gods and Devils.

Try to enjoy others for a change, instead of forcing them to enjoy you.
None but Jesus and the enlightened are perfect in this endeavor, the rest of us can choose to make strides or to remain unaware, fighting for our own little piece of illusory landscape. In the end we must place humanity above selfish desire, personal gain, being right, so we can choose to be just.

If you believe that your path is the only right one and all others are going to Hell, and in the same sentence demand you're not condemning anyone through your beliefs, you just might be a Republican.

So... Paul Ryan and Eric Cantor say that everything is on the table for cuts, including the defense budget... that's news to Romney though because his plan raises the defense budget. What it comes down to is no one is telling the truth.

It's also mind numbing when Paul Ryan thinks he's schooling Joe Biden when he says the problem with the Obama administration is in not trying to be bipartisan, when anyone paying attention knows the first 2 years of Obama's presidency was spent in bipartisan proposals that the Republicans denied simply on the grounds that they came from Obama, even when they were their own proposals in the first place, so Paul Ryan is just as clearly a liar as Mitt Romney.

Why is it at the debate when Biden said the only ways to cut 5 trillion dollars was to cut the middle class, and Ryan said no you can do it without hurting the middle class, instead of being an idiot and saying "Oh you're Jack Kennedy now?" which was Joe Biden losing the thread of the debate, why didn't he just say, okay, if I'm wrong tell us right now specifically how you cut 5 trillion without effecting the middle class. Why didn't he ask him to put up or shut up?

We can become so certain of our selves that we lose sight of reality, and reality is not separation, but the integral nature of all things.

You ever feel like you're the only one of your friends who knows how to use a search engine? I am constantly asked questions about things that one could easily Google, or maybe my friends all just believe I'm the Wizard of Oz... I suppose I should be flattered but I often feel as if they're just really lazy.

I think if you believe in making wishes at 11:11, you need to also believe in Bloody Mary.

Started working on this new little workout program each day called Pushups Pro, you just follow a schedule of pushups and cooldowns each day to build up your strength. I'm on day 2 and my arms feel like they want to escape my body.

If tennis is going to make a rule forcing women not to grunt so loudly, which sounds a lot like religious intolerance to me, you better tell quarterbacks not to shout so loud before every play. It's only fair.

I would also like to add, the main reason people feel compelled by progress is convenience, and some convenience is good,

Okay, okay... I thought the whole Dr Who and angels thing was cool at first, then they brought it back because it was really cool which was fine too, but now they're focusing a little too much on it, I think they've wrapped a tree around it like a car accident. They're now beating it like a dead horse...

Tonight I downloaded the movie "Seeking A Friend For The End Of The World"

Great title, the flow and rhyme scheme makes it really enticing... but hey it's 2012
and I knew like everyone else who thought about it, that 2012 would be a year saturated with End of the World-themed movies, because of the whole ignorant interpretation of Mayan calendars thing.

Now yes extinction level events have occurred in history, not once but a few times, we can see the evidence in the fossil record, but shifts take thousands, sometimes millions of years to occur, also the whole fear behind the 2012 thing is ungrounded, as it's known by scientists a few crucial facts...

1. Earth and other planets in our solar system have been far better aligned in the past without incident.

2. The Black Hole in question is much too far away for it's gravitation to have the effect feared by conspiracy theorists.

3. If a planet were hurling itself through space towards us to reach us by December 21st, 2012, we'd have seen evidence of effects on our outer planets YEARS ago, and if we are still not detecting those vibrations, then the Planet X, or Nibiru as it's called would have to be so small as to be pulled into the sun and burned up without incident
anyway, or even the gravitation of Jupiter, and actually, not long ago a "something" did get pulled into Jupiter, there's video of it, and it's very cool, or was it Saturn? I forget.

Anyway, we're all pretty much safe from that, and honestly anything can happen so why worry?

I think the problem with today's children who are simply submerged in constant stimulus, is that while the quantity of information they are taking is has grown,

Do they still make kangaroo shoes? Why didn't that whole little pocket on the side of your shoe thing take off? That was a great idea. House key, bike lock... little cash. It was awesome. Boom, you're ready to go, sell that to the Jews for their "You can has no carry of things in pockets Day" which happens every week!

But no, Jews just want those dumb crocs, idiots. I can say this, I'm Jewish. Black people can call each other, umm... well, I can't tell you what they can call each other, but it's worse.

Bought a nice webcam to start putting my music up on Youtube... I'll be putting some songs from my debut album which really needs more exposure, and bonus songs as well as special features like interviews with cats!

Dexter Season 7 is amazing, Michael C Hall has amazed me with his acting ever since the show Six Feet Under, and in season 7 of Dexter he really shows some incredible mastery, truly Emmy worthy actor, the man's been through so much, surviving cancer was just part of it. I hope he wins an Emmy this year.

A woman does not require breasts to be beautiful, for beauty is the light that shines from within the house, and not its fences.

Budget cuts to Boardwalk Empire have caused them to forget gas cans exist in 1935 and stay a few episodes in a small town called Tabor Heights south of NYC, but at least they aren't spending the entire season there, unlike Old MacDonald Had a Zombie.

I have a thousand reasons not to vote for Mitt Romney, but I only need one... to save Antiques Roadshow. I'll vote for Obama now and just send him a letter about Monsanto, that should do the trick.

To criticize is to appropriate
Turn the screw, before you are too late
Start living the life you've imagined
Excellence does not require perfection

~Henry James

Whenever I get athlete's foot, I just eat really good cheese and make them fight.

I don't smoke very often, maybe one cigarette a week, but when I do, I smoke Dunhill Internationals that I keep in a rare discontinued limited edition soft case I got very lucky in finding the last one of, in a 1940's cigarette holder that filters the poisons far better than the filter that comes on a cigarette, using a St Dupont limited edition "Neptune" hand crafted lighter...

Every experience can be explained, and an explanation is a drawing, and a drawing is a window back to the experience.

Have you ever noticed people who claim to have seen a ghost only see one at a time? That's because they haven't seen a ghost, they've seen the externalization of their own subconscious fears, the disassociation from themselves through body and sense confusion... now show me a person who saw two ghosts at the same time, or three, or four... then you might have something... more people have died in history than are living on the earth today... if ghosts exist, then we are like fish swimming in a sea of spirits, space is ghosts, and everything is One in a unified consciousness, a singularity... the black of space is the curtain of ignorance kept over our eyes until we are ready to know the truth... the stars are glimpses of God peeking through, but there is no separation, once the curtain is pulled away, it is not a matter of you and God, you and anything else, but simply... the Youniverse.

Song of Friendship
(just got inspired to write this new song, first rough draft)

A sudden feeling came over me, the kind that finds you there. Walking through my hungry heart, sleeping and aware. I wanted to create for you a simple melody, just something to let you know I love you, and to remind me.

That every day brings another chance to say it. And every hour offers endless opportunity. And each time I put it off for something else to do, I fall further into old returns that offer nothing new.

But every day brings another chance to say it. And every moment whispers soft and near. And each time I put it off for something else to do, I fall further inside of me and further away from you.

I kinda wish I lived in the future where we all lived in space on our own little asteroids, and could swim through space or jet pack through space and take our pets on little space walks, and our cats would chase space squids, and the mailman would stop by a little floating mailbox, and instead of looking up to the stars at night, we'd just look around...

God created the Heavens and the Earth in 6 days, and on the 7th He created you to annoy me.

There was a time it didn't matter what I Google'd for, I always returned at least one nude woman in my results, nowadays I always return at least one cat photo... I wonder what this means?

The movie CLOUD ATLAS looks very similar to THE FOUNTAIN, which means I'll probably love it.

I don't get hippies these days. Meat is murder, but it's okay to kill your television.

I bought this amazing contact agent that you put in your toilet that attracts and neutralizes urine. It makes your bathroom smell nice and kills bacteria and stuff... but now I'm afraid if it attracts urine and I spill any on my self, will it make me pee on myself? ... this joke needs a little work...

I don't understand it, why do fish get all the utilitarian abilities? ...and they never use them! Sword fish, Hammerheads, are sharks just secret thespians? One shark builds a stage and the other performs The Three Musketeers? Pygmy sharks could be ushers cos their bellies glow.

You ever miss the oddest things because they remind you of something greater by proxy? Example. Ashtray sand. The kind that's black and shiny, like diamonds and soft like cashmere.

Have you ever heard this in an airplane: "The captain has turned off the no-smoking sign?" - I have but only once, when I flew to England in 1990.

In 1988 Pres. Reagan signed a bill banning smoking on all flights of 2 hours or less. In 2000, smoking was banned on all flights.

When those around you seem so bright, so happy and unfettered, just remember, it isn't easy for anyone. Don't trust appearances, we're all in this grand one act play together.

I love Halloween, I love all the little kids being so adorable and saying the funniest things, the magic in the air, the cats on the lawn running around for attention, it reminds me of when I was really young and trick 'r treating, bringing candy back home, sometimes trading candy, or stacking candies together to see what we got...
I always spend way too much money on Halloween, but I never regret it.

Do you have any plans for Halloween? I know Shoshana likely does not celebrate it at all perhaps, not sure if anyone in the family does, though Val celebrates it with me, you see I decided years ago that would be OUR holiday.

Each Halloween I decided we would make grandma's Divinity cookies, and I would make tons of pumpkin pies and cookies and it would be a time of creativity throughout the home. It's wonderful.

They say it's nearly impossible to tell how a cat is really feeling, I'm here to tell you, there's a very simple way to know how your cat is feeling. Watch the way your cat comes in or out, the doorway is where they express their emotion openly, the way a cat comes in or out says it all.

One thing that kind of confuses me that everyone just accepts in ghost movies is that old addage, through curiosity, through trying to communicate you are opening the door and letting them in... now this is the problem I have with this logic. If you are feeling the presence, and it's communicating already, it's already there, so what door are they referring to? Do they mean like a spiritual door

way of the self? The mind? Your personal space? Or this world? Because we all know what you resist persists, and telling you to not open the door is like telling someone not to think of an elephant.

I just think this logic is very flawed and irrational, likely fear based, I believe what happens is this.

We are born. We become disassociated from our core. Things we fear take on external manifestations, and we become attached to those forms. We then think we are afraid of things outside of ourselves, things like spiders, the dark, ghosts, the unknown is all it is though and our misidentification of aspects of ourselves we are not in tune with...

I believe when we reach out to the things we fear, we find they were not only not ghosts, not anything to worry about, but actually aspects of ourselves, and we become more full beings, enriched and empowered, and through that reintegration of our conscious and unconscious aspects, amazing things become possible... I could go into what I believe those things are sometime if anyone is interested.

Who should I vote for President in 2012?

Let’s see…

Obama appointed the heads of Monsanto to the FDA.
Obama declared war on medical marijuana.
Obama signed NDA which allows the government to hold American citizens without a hearing forever, to kill any American without answering for it.
Obama drone bombed 5 countries in the middle east, tallying up a death toll in the tens of thousands.
Obama has done nothing about poverty, the bank corruption, Super Pacs, and gave BP a slap on the wrist, and whatever happened to Goldmann, oh right he appointed all those lobbyists he promised not to.
Obama campaigned as the man of change in 2008, in 2012 stated he is not the man of change.
Obama killed a fly on national TV.
I could go on and on about Obama…

Romney destroyed American jobs .
Romney balanced his budget by raising the costs on the elderly and disabled.
Romney put his dog on the roof of his car and drove across the country.
Romney has never once told the truth to the American people.
Romney is a sociopath.
Romney has ofshore accounts.
Romney has more money in his offshore accounts than is legal.
I could go on and on about Romney.

I've done it. I've invented the next generation energy resource. It consists of putting a cat in a palladium laced aerogel elliptical bio frame in zero gravity, powering a particle accelerator, fired by a triangulation of tesla coils embedded cold fusion reactor and marijuana smoke bouyancy matrix of drum circles and throat singing of Taoist monks...

I call it N.I.M.P (Nuclearblur Irie Meow Power) should take off pretty quickly now.

When I was too in love to let it go, I thought of all the things I thought that you should know...
But you're the one who taught them to me, and today you look right through me...

A little love goes a long way, like remembering light in a pitch black day.
A little hand squeeze and you're okay, like remembering everything that got in the way.

And it all slips away, until the only thing that remains is the memory of the good times like a clear flowing stream through the mind.

I believe as a human being I create an environment for myself, with elements of Feng Shui, simplicity, getting rid of clutter, creating a space I am comfortable in, with space to think, meditate and create, and sometimes to work...

I have

two cats, Jupiter and Neptune, and I try to create that environment for them as well, so they can feel safe, comfortable and at ease in their environment...

To help empower a space I sometimes use, fountains, or crystals, or just keeping the space aired out, uncluttered, organized and freeflowing... For my pets I utilized power objects.

For Jupiter, I bought a beautiful 1850 Chinese calligraphy tapestry of a tiger that actually looks a lot like him and hung it in my bedroom, but for Neptune, maybe I'll get this lighter, it's a St Dupont handcrafted Neptune lighter.

Do you believe in power objects to empower a space for those you are trying to nurture?

Watching the 2006 horror flick Stay Alive, I've seen it a bunch of times but there's something about it I really like.

Being in a video game, creepy video games in general, the atmosphere, the story, a pretty creepy movie

with some solid effects.

I'm not saying the movie is perfect, the story is pretty thin and full of holes, for example, why do the cops think the main character did it when he has witnesses that can vouch for him as not being there to have done the murders? The guy has an airtight alibi, but the effects, pacing, music, creepiness and chemistry really works, maybe one has to be a gamer to really get this movie, but I believe this movie is far more deserving than a 4.9 rating.

Even the music is great, it's like a cross between Final Destination and The Ring... sharp, staccato, haunting, reflective, with child-like carousel tones dancing over the top, it's really nice.

The only real bad thing about this movie is most of the characters are unbelievable, and the actor direction was abysmal.

I know when I first saw this movie with some friends we ALL wished this game existed, looked on IMDb and saw we weren't alone.
I mean there are some great horror games out now, but none like this with a horror blend of MMO aspects: Penumbra and Amnesia come to mind
as single player games.

World of Warcraft early on had some creepy elements; think Plaguelands, Scholomance, but still, it was pretty tame stuff compared to this.

It also might seem a little silly to make Elizabeth Bathory the main antagonist, being that she died in Hungary and not New Orleans where this takes place,
they could have used someone more local, someone like Delphine LaLaurie, but I figure more people would know the name Bathory, so they went with what's most accessible to the audiences.

Anyway, fun little flick.

Ah, I love the midcentury modern look. In design, in chairs, in how people dressed, in attention to detail, in the artwork, in the brush strokes. To me, it's like putting the thought that brought me into being under a microscope, like I can see the sperm that raced towards the egg that tiny big bang that became me, and for this and so much more, I am grateful, I am in awe, I am overwhelmed, but even moreso than these feelings, I am hopeful.

If you preorder the album at the discounted $10 price, I will throw in the album my buddy Rob and I recorded back in 1995 for free! But only preorders will get this offer. It's not like amazing, but it's kind of interesting, improvised lyrics over folksy guitar done in a real nice studio in San Diego, our band was called Mere Image and we made this one album... so I think that might be fun to do, let me know what you think about that on Facebook!

If you would like to buy a copy paying with check, money order, or concealed cash, please send payment of $20 which includes shipping to the address below. International orders add $15 for shipping might be happier waiting on the digital purchase.

The songs in the player are just rough versions so people had something to listen to on the site -- the versions on the album will be far better.

I don't know if the final CD will have 16 songs on it, as listed, that might be too many songs for a debut album, right now I'm working out that, the final song order, the final recordings,
I already bought the eco-friendly packaging and labels, my buddy Mike is doing the original art.

This is a really exciting time for me! And I hope you enjoy and share in the excitement of my debut album, "I Fall Awake".

You rock, thanks!