"Nap after adventure, not in lieu of"

January 10, 2016

[3:07a]

My baby waits at Death's door.

There is nothing left to give but my time.

If there is a life after this one, to make use of the love we have learned in the short moments we have here on Earth, then let Neptune's Heaven be full of love, comfort, and me.

And if there be nothing waiting beyond,
well... let us try to live our lives not on the basis of an ideal of good intentions, but on the basis of perfect preservation.

A physical well being must take precedence over all others, for they are only possible once the first is attained.

I sit with my boy, weak and worried. Learning what I have now, I wish I had kept him inside. I do feel a little guilty, how could I not? Jupiter wants to go out, but he ain't going, Luna hisses Death away, and I guess I do the same.